March 1st 2019 was the day my life changed in so many ways. It was like unlocking a sought after treasure chest with life’s secrets. My queen and I never really thought we would have a kid, at the time it just wasn’t in our cards. Fast forward a few years after i turned 29 and I came home to her holding a positive test. It definitely was a heart pounding “you serious” moment but a special one you won’t forget.
I’ll never forget the day my son was born, I remember sitting in the birth room with the Eminem lyrics going through my head of “ His palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy” but beyond the iconic lyrics I had these thoughts of self development going though my head 100mph because I knew I wanted to be the best I can be for my son . The type of thoughts I wish i had in my early 20’s but I was to busy enjoying the things a 20 year old enjoyed. My queen was in the operating room and it was a C-section because my son was breached so we knew when it was go time. Just before I went in I played a video on YouTube from a channel I really enjoy called Sugarshack Sessions with the artist Iya Terra singing “Give Thanks” check it out and you’ll understand why I wanted to listen to it before going into that room knowing damm well I wouldn’t be the same person coming out. The door opens in the birth room I was waiting in and the nurse said “are you ready?” And again in my head I had another random fucking thought of Bruce Buffer from the UFC with a mic pointing at me and then yelling at the top of his lungs “ ITSSSSSSSSSSSS TIMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE” to be honest I was hyped as fuck going in to that operating room but also nervous as fuck.
There was a scene from the movie Blow where Boston George passed out during the birth of their child but he also overdosed on coke so that was the difference from me and him I was just nervous and my heart racing (legally of course). The moment my son was raised by the doctor like Rafeki holding Simba in Lion King was a feeling that my heart felt immensely and then seeing my Queen see our Prince for the first time was a moment stored in my mind for the rest of time. It was beautiful, you see beautiful shit often but that kind of beautiful is the essence of life. A tip from me to you, is take as many photos/videos as you can, I love the fact that I can go back and relive important moments in my life or the random ones that put a smile on my face. An example, I took a trip back in time to relive the last 3 years I’ve had with my son many I remembered and many I even forgot I took a picture/vid and to see it again brought me back to that day.
Fast forward to 3/1/22 I woke up and hit the store and grabbed him some DC Mcfarlne action figures (Batman/Superman) so he had something to open when he woke up since we were opening gifts later that night with our parents. When I tell you he is the greatest thing that has ever happened to me thats an understatement. He’s only 3 and I consider him my mentor because he makes me want to learn new things and become better every day. His laugh, smile & love is what fuels me every fucking day to be the best I can be. I want to set him up to be the best he can be with a foundation in place for him to be able to do what he wants freely and express himself how ever the fuck he wants to in this life. My core values I want him to know are simple.
1. Treat others like you want to be treated.
2. Embrace the differences in others
3. Live Well (eat well, listen well, move well)
4. Give Thanks
5. Dream/Do
My son has changed me in so many ways and one of the fist things that happened when I knew he was on his way was setting myself up for the 5am club which has changed my life dramatically and I’ll share that on my next post.
Current Track Playing: White Gloves by Khruangbin
Long Live The Dad 